The Country House
PART III
CHAPTER IX
BELLEW BOWS TO A LADY
There was silence at the Firs, and in that silent house, where only five
rooms were used, an old manservant sat in his pantry on a wooden chair,
reading from an article out of Rural Life. There was no one to disturb
him, for the master was asleep, and the housekeeper had not yet come to
cook the dinner. He read slowly, through spectacles, engraving the words
for ever on the tablets of his mind. He read about the construction and
habits of the owl: “In the tawny, or brown, owl there is a manubrial
process; the furcula, far from being joined to the keel of the sternum,
consists of two stylets, which do not even meet; while the posterior
margin of the sternum presents two pairs of projections, with
corresponding fissures between.” The old manservant paused, resting
his blinking eyes on the pale sunlight through the bars of his narrow
window, so that a little bird on the window-sill looked at him and
instantly flew away.
The old manservant read on again: “The pterylological characters of
Photodilus seem not to have been investigated, but it has been found to
want the tarsal loop, as well as the manubrial process, while its
clavicles are not joined in a furcula, nor do they meet the keel, and the
posterior margin of the sternum has processes and fissures like the tawny
section.” Again he paused, and his gaze was satisfied and bland.
Up in the little smoking-room in a leather chair his master sat asleep. In
front of him were stretched his legs in dusty riding-boots. His lips were
closed, but through a little hole at one corner came a tiny puffing sound.
On the floor by his side was an empty glass, between his feet a Spanish
bulldog. On a shelf above his head reposed some frayed and yellow novels
with sporting titles, written by persons in their inattentive moments.
Over the chimneypiece presided the portrait of Mr. Jorrocks persuading his
horse to cross a stream.
And the face of Jaspar Bellew asleep was the face of a man who has ridden
far, to get away from himself, and to-morrow will have to ride far again.
His sandy eyebrows twitched with his dreams against the dead-white,
freckled skin above high cheekbones, and two hard ridges were fixed
between his brows; now and then over the sleeping face came the look of
one riding at a gate.
In the stables behind the house she who had carried him on his ride,
having rummaged out her last grains of corn, lifted her nose and poked it
through the bars of her loosebox to see what he was doing who had not
carried her master that sweltering afternoon, and seeing that he was
awake, she snorted lightly, to tell him there was thunder in the air. All
else in the stables was deadly quiet; the shrubberies around were still;
and in the hushed house the master slept.
But on the edge of his wooden chair in the silence of his pantry the old
manservant read, “This bird is a voracious feeder,” and he
paused, blinking his eyes and nervously puckering his lips, for he had
partially understood....
Mrs. Pendyce was crossing the fields. She had on her prettiest frock, of
smoky-grey crepe, and she looked a little anxiously at the sky. Gathered
in the west a coming storm was chasing the whitened sunlight. Against its
purple the trees stood blackish-green. Everything was very still, not even
the poplars stirred, yet the purple grew with sinister, unmoving speed.
Mrs. Pendyce hurried, grasping her skirts in both her hands, and she
noticed that the cattle were all grouped under the hedge.
'What dreadful-looking clouds!' she thought. 'I wonder
if I shall get to the Firs before it comes?' But though her frock
made her hasten, her heart made her stand still, it fluttered so, and was
so full. Suppose he were not sober! She remembered those little burning
eyes, which had frightened her so the night he dined at Worsted Skeynes
and fell out of his dogcart afterwards. A kind of legendary malevolence
clung about his image.
'Suppose he is horrid to me!' she thought.
She could not go back now; but she wished—how she wished!—that
it were over. A heat-drop splashed her glove. She crossed the lane and
opened the Firs gate. Throwing frightened glances at the sky, she hastened
down the drive. The purple was couched like a pall on the treetops, and
these had begun to sway and moan as though struggling and weeping at their
fate. Some splashes of warm rain were falling. A streak of lightning tore
the firmament. Mrs. Pendyce rushed into the porch covering her ears with
her hands.
'How long will it last?' she thought. 'I'm so
frightened!'...
A very old manservant, whose face was all puckers, opened the door
suddenly to peer out at the storm, but seeing Mrs. Pendyce, he peered at
her instead.
“Is Captain Bellew at home?”
“Yes, ma'am. The Captain's in the study. We don't
use the drawing-room now. Nasty storm coming on, ma'am—nasty
storm. Will you please to sit down a minute, while I let the Captain know?”
The hall was low and dark; the whole house was low and dark, and smelled a
little of woodrot. Mrs. Pendyce did not sit down, but stood under an
arrangement of three foxes' heads, supporting two hunting-crops,
with their lashes hanging down. And the heads of those animals suggested
to her the thought: 'Poor man! He must be very lonely here.'
She started. Something was rubbing against her knees: it was only an
enormous bulldog. She stooped down to pat it, and having once begun, found
it impossible to leave off, for when she took her hand away the creature
pressed against her, and she was afraid for her frock.
“Poor old boy—poor old boy!” she kept on murmuring.
“Did he want a little attention?”
A voice behind her said:
“Get out, Sam! Sorry to have kept you waiting. Won't you come
in here?”
Mrs. Pendyce, blushing and turning pale by turns, passed into a low,
small, panelled room, smelling of cigars and spirits. Through the window,
which was cut up into little panes, she could see the rain driving past,
the shrubs bent and dripping from the downpour.
“Won't you sit down?”
Mrs. Pendyce sat down. She had clasped her hands together; she now raised
her eyes and looked timidly at her host.
She saw a thin, high-shouldered figure, with bowed legs a little apart,
rumpled sandy hair, a pale, freckled face, and little dark blinking eyes.
“Sorry the room's in such a mess. Don't often have the
pleasure of seeing a lady. I was asleep; generally am at this time of
year!”
The bristly red moustache was contorted as though his lips were smiling.
Mrs. Pendyce murmured vaguely.
It seemed to her that nothing of this was real, but all some horrid dream.
A clap of thunder made her cover her ears.
Bellew walked to the window, glanced at the sky, and came back to the
hearth. His little burning eyes seemed to look her through and through.
'If I don't speak at once,' she thought, 'I never
shall speak at all.'
“I've come,” she began, and with those words she lost
her fright; her voice, that had been so uncertain hitherto, regained its
trick of speech; her eyes, all pupil, stared dark and gentle at this man
who had them all in his power—“I've come to tell you
something, Captain Bellew!”
The figure by the hearth bowed, and her fright, like some evil bird, came
guttering down on her again. It was dreadful, it was barbarous that she,
that anyone, should have to speak of such things; it was barbarous that
men and women should so misunderstand each other, and have so little
sympathy and consideration; it was barbarous that she, Margery Pendyce,
should have to talk on this subject that must give them both such pain. It
was all so mean and gross and common! She took out her handkerchief and
passed it over her lips.
“Please forgive me for speaking. Your wife has given my son up,
Captain Bellew!”
Bellew did not move.
“She does not love him; she told me so herself! He will never see
her again!”
How hateful, how horrible, how odious!
And still Bellew did not speak, but stood devouring her with his little
eyes; and how long this went on she could not tell.
He turned his back suddenly, and leaned against the mantelpiece.
Mrs. Pendyce passed her hand over her brow to get rid of a feeling of
unreality.
“That is all,” she said.
Her voice sounded to herself unlike her own.
'If that is really all,' she thought, 'I suppose I must
get up and go!' And it flashed through her mind: 'My poor
dress will be ruined!'
Bellew turned round.
“Will you have some tea?”
Mrs. Pendyce smiled a pale little smile.
“No, thank you; I don't think I could drink any tea.”
“I wrote a letter to your husband.”
“Yes.”
“He didn't answer it.”
“No.”
Mrs. Pendyce saw him staring at her, and a desperate struggle began within
her. Should she not ask him to keep his promise, now that George——?
Was not that what she had come for? Ought she not—ought she not for
all their sakes?
Bellew went up to the table, poured out some whisky, and drank it off.
“You don't ask me to stop the proceedings,” he said.
Mrs. Pendyce's lips were parted, but nothing came through those
parted lips. Her eyes, black as sloes in her white face, never moved from
his; she made no sound.
Bellew dashed his hand across his brow.
“Well, I will!” he said, “for your sake. There's
my hand on it. You're the only lady I know!”
He gripped her gloved fingers, brushed past her, and she saw that she was
alone.
She found her own way out, with the tears running down her face. Very
gently she shut the hall door.
'My poor dress!' she thought. 'I wonder if I might stand
here a little? The rain looks nearly over!'
The purple cloud had passed, and sunk behind the house, and a bright white
sky was pouring down a sparkling rain; a patch of deep blue showed behind
the fir-trees in the drive. The thrushes were out already after worms. A
squirrel scampering along a branch stopped and looked at Mrs. Pendyce, and
Mrs. Pendyce looked absently at the squirrel from behind the little
handkerchief with which she was drying her eyes.
'That poor man!' she thought 'poor solitary creature!
There's the sun!'
And it seemed to her that it was the first time the sun had shone all this
fine hot year. Gathering her dress in both hands, she stepped into the
drive, and soon was back again in the fields.
Every green thing glittered, and the air was so rain-sweet that all the
summer scents were gone, before the crystal scent of nothing. Mrs. Pendyce's
shoes were soon wet through.
'How happy I am!' she thought 'how glad and happy I am!'
And the feeling, which was not as definite as this, possessed her to the
exclusion of all other feelings in the rain-soaked fields.
The cloud that had hung over Worsted Skeynes so long had spent itself and
gone. Every sound seemed to be music, every moving thing danced. She
longed to get to her early roses, and see how the rain had treated them.
She had a stile to cross, and when she was safely over she paused a minute
to gather her skirts more firmly. It was a home-field she was in now, and
right before her lay the country house. Long and low and white it stood in
the glamourous evening haze, with two bright panes, where the sunlight
fell, watching, like eyes, the confines of its acres; and behind it, to
the left, broad, square, and grey among its elms, the village church.
Around, above, beyond, was peace—the sleepy, misty peace of the
English afternoon.
Mrs. Pendyce walked towards her garden. When she was near it, away to the
right, she saw the Squire and Mr. Barter. They were standing together
looking at a tree and—symbol of a subservient under-world—the
spaniel John was seated on his tail, and he, too, was looking at the tree.
The faces of the Rector and Mr. Pendyce were turned up at the same angle,
and different as those faces and figures were in their eternal rivalry of
type, a sort of essential likeness struck her with a feeling of surprise.
It was as though a single spirit seeking for a body had met with these two
shapes, and becoming confused, decided to inhabit both.
Mrs. Pendyce did not wave to them, but passed quickly, between the
yew-trees, through the wicket-gate....
In her garden bright drops were falling one by one from every rose-leaf,
and in the petals of each rose were jewels of water. A little down the
path a weed caught her eye; she looked closer, and saw that there were
several.
'Oh,' she thought, 'how dreadfully they've let the
weeds I must really speak to Jackman!'
A rose-tree, that she herself had planted, rustled close by, letting fall
a shower of drops.
Mrs. Pendyce bent down, and took a white rose in her fingers. With her
smiling lips she kissed its face. 1907.