CHAPTER VI
CREAM DE MENTHE
THEY MET again in the cafe several hours later. Gerald went through the push
doors into the large, lofty room where the faces and heads of the drinkers
showed dimly through the haze of smoke, reflected more dimly, and repeated ad
infinitum in the great mirrors on the walls, so that one seemed to enter a
vague, dim world of shadowy drinkers humming within an atmosphere of blue
tobacco smoke. There was, however, the red plush of the seats to give substance
within the bubble of pleasure.
Gerald moved in his slow, observant, glistening-attentive motion down between
the tables and the people whose shadowy faces looked up as he passed. He seemed
to be entering in some strange element, passing into an illuminated new region,
among a host of licentious souls. He was pleased, and entertained. He looked
over all the dim, evanescent, strangely illuminated faces that bent across the
tables. Then he saw Birkin rise and signal to him.
At Birkin's table was a girl with dark, soft, fluffy hair cut short in the
artist fashion, hanging level and full almost like the Egyptian princess's. She
was small and delicately made, with warm colouring and large, dark hostile eyes.
There was a delicacy, almost a beauty in all her form, and at the same time a
certain attractive grossness of spirit, that made a little spark leap instantly
alight in Gerald's eyes.
Birkin, who looked muted, unreal, his presence left out, introduced her as
Miss Darrington. She gave her hand with a sudden, unwilling movement, looking
all the while at Gerald with a dark, exposed stare. A glow came over him as he
sat down.
The waiter appeared. Gerald glanced at the glasses of the other two. Birkin
was drinking something green, Miss Darrington had a small liqueur glass that was
empty save for a tiny drop.
`Won't you have some more ?'
`Brandy,' she said, sipping her last drop and putting down the glass. The
waiter disappeared.
`No,' she said to Birkin. `He doesn't know I'm back. He'll be terrified
when he sees me here.'
She spoke her r's like w's, lisping with a slightly babyish pronunciation
which was at once affected and true to her character. Her voice was dull and
toneless.
`Where is he then?' asked Birkin.
`He's doing a private show at Lady Snellgrove's,' said the girl. `Warens is
there too.'
There was a pause.
`Well, then,' said Birkin, in a dispassionate protective manner, `what do you
intend to do?'
The girl paused sullenly. She hated the question.
`I don't intend to do anything,' she replied. `I shall look for some
sittings tomorrow.'
`Who shall you go to?' asked Birkin.
`I shall go to Bentley's first. But I believe he's angwy with me for running
away.'
`That is from the Madonna?'
`Yes. And then if he doesn't want me, I know I can get work with Carmarthen.'
`Carmarthen?'
`Lord Carmarthen he does photographs.'
`Chiffon and shoulders '
`Yes. But he's awfully decent.' There was a pause.
`And what are you going to do about Julius?' he asked.
`Nothing,' she said. `I shall just ignore him.'
`You've done with him altogether?' But she turned aside her face sullenly,
and did not answer the question.
Another young man came hurrying up to the table.
`Hallo Birkin! Hallo Pussum, when did you come back?' he said eagerly.
`Today.'
`Does Halliday know?'
`I don't know. I don't care either.'
`Ha-ha! The wind still sits in that quarter, does it? Do you mind if I come
over to this table?'
`I'm talking to Wupert, do you mind?' she replied, coolly and yet
appealingly, like a child.
`Open confession good for the soul, eh?' said the young man. `Well, so
long.'
And giving a sharp look at Birkin and at Gerald, the young man moved off,
with a swing of his coat skirts.
All this time Gerald had been completely ignored. And yet he felt that the
girl was physically aware of his proximity. He waited, listened, and tried to
piece together the conversation.
`Are you staying at the flat?' the girl asked, of Birkin.
`For three days,' replied Birkin. `And you?'
`I don't know yet. I can always go to Bertha's.' There was a silence.
Suddenly the girl turned to Gerald, and said, in a rather formal, polite
voice, with the distant manner of a woman who accepts her position as a social
inferior, yet assumes intimate camaraderie with the male she addresses:
`Do you know London well?'
`I can hardly say,' he laughed. `I've been up a good many times, but I was
never in this place before.'
`You're not an artist, then?' she said, in a tone that placed him an
outsider.
`No,' he replied.
`He's a soldier, and an explorer, and a Napoleon of industry,' said Birkin,
giving Gerald his credentials for Bohemia.
`Are you a soldier?' asked the girl, with a cold yet lively curiosity.
`No, I resigned my commission,' said Gerald, `some years ago.'
`He was in the last war,' said Birkin.
`Were you really?' said the girl.
`And then he explored the Amazon,' said Birkin, `and now he is ruling over
coal-mines.'
The girl looked at Gerald with steady, calm curiosity. He laughed, hearing
himself described. He felt proud too, full of male strength. His blue, keen
eyes were lit up with laughter, his ruddy face, with its sharp fair hair, was
full of satisfaction, and glowing with life. He piqued her.
`How long are you staying?' she asked him.
`A day or two,' he replied. `But there is no particular hurry.'
Still she stared into his face with that slow, full gaze which was so curious
and so exciting to him. He was acutely and delightfully conscious of himself,
of his own attractiveness. He felt full of strength, able to give off a sort of
electric power. And he was aware of her dark, hot-looking eyes upon him. She
had beautiful eyes, dark, fully-opened, hot, naked in their looking at him. And
on them there seemed to float a film of disintegration, a sort of misery and
sullenness, like oil on water. She wore no hat in the heated cafe, her loose,
simple jumper was strung on a string round her neck. But it was made of rich
peach-coloured crepe-de-chine, that hung heavily and softly from her young
throat and her slender wrists. Her appearance was simple and complete, really
beautiful, because of her regularity and form, her soft dark hair falling full
and level on either side of her head, her straight, small, softened features,
Egyptian in the slight fulness of their curves, her slender neck and the simple,
rich-coloured smock hanging on her slender shoulders. She was very still,
almost null, in her manner, apart and watchful.
She appealed to Gerald strongly. He felt an awful, enjoyable power over her,
an instinctive cherishing very near to cruelty. For she was a victim. He felt
that she was in his power, and he was generous. The electricity was turgid and
voluptuously rich, in his limbs. He would be able to destroy her utterly in the
strength of his discharge. But she was waiting in her separation, given.
They talked banalities for some time. Suddenly Birkin said:
`There's Julius!' and he half rose to his feet, motioning to the newcomer.
The girl, with a curious, almost evil motion, looked round over her shoulder
without moving her body. Gerald watched her dark, soft hair swing over her
ears. He felt her watching intensely the man who was approaching, so he looked
too. He saw a pale, full-built young man with rather long, solid fair hair
hanging from under his black hat, moving cumbrously down the room, his face lit
up with a smile at once naive and warm, and vapid. He approached towards
Birkin, with a haste of welcome.
It was not till he was quite close that he perceived the girl. He recoiled,
went pale, and said, in a high squealing voice:
`Pussum, what are you doing here?'
The cafe looked up like animals when they hear a cry. Halliday hung
motionless, an almost imbecile smile flickering palely on his face. The girl
only stared at him with a black look in which flared an unfathomable hell of
knowledge, and a certain impotence. She was limited by him.
`Why have you come back?' repeated Halliday, in the same high, hysterical
voice. `I told you not to come back.'
The girl did not answer, only stared in the same viscous, heavy fashion,
straight at him, as he stood recoiled, as if for safety, against the next table.
`You know you wanted her to come back come and sit down,' said Birkin to
him.
`No I didn't want her to come back, and I told her not to come back. What
have you come for, Pussum?'
`For nothing from you,' she said in a heavy voice of resentment.
`Then why have you come back at all?' cried Halliday, his voice rising
to a kind of squeal.
`She comes as she likes,' said Birkin. `Are you going to sit down, or are
you not?'
`No, I won't sit down with Pussum,' cried Halliday.
`I won't hurt you, you needn't be afraid,' she said to him, very curtly, and
yet with a sort of protectiveness towards him, in her voice.
Halliday came and sat at the table, putting his hand on his heart, and
crying:
`Oh, it's given me such a turn! Pussum, I wish you wouldn't do these things.
Why did you come back?'
`Not for anything from you,' she repeated.
`You've said that before,' he cried in a high voice.
She turned completely away from him, to Gerald Crich, whose eyes were shining
with a subtle amusement.
`Were you ever vewy much afwaid of the savages?' she asked in her calm, dull
childish voice.
`No never very much afraid. On the whole they're harmless they're not
born yet, you can't feel really afraid of them. You know you can manage them.'
`Do you weally? Aren't they very fierce?'
`Not very. There aren't many fierce things, as a matter of fact. There
aren't many things, neither people nor animals, that have it in them to be
really dangerous.'
`Except in herds,' interrupted Birkin.
`Aren't there really?' she said. `Oh, I thought savages were all so
dangerous, they'd have your life before you could look round.'
`Did you?' he laughed. `They are over-rated, savages. They're too much like
other people, not exciting, after the first acquaintance.'
`Oh, it's not so very wonderfully brave then, to be an explorer?'
`No. It's more a question of hardships than of terrors.'
`Oh! And weren't you ever afraid?'
`In my life? I don't know. Yes, I'm afraid of some things of being shut
up, locked up anywhere or being fastened. I'm afraid of being bound hand and
foot.'
She looked at him steadily with her dark eyes, that rested on him and roused
him so deeply, that it left his upper self quite calm. It was rather delicious,
to feel her drawing his self-revelations from him, as from the very innermost
dark marrow of his body. She wanted to know. And her dark eyes seemed to be
looking through into his naked organism. He felt, she was compelled to him, she
was fated to come into contact with him, must have the seeing him and knowing
him. And this roused a curious exultance. Also he felt, she must relinquish
herself into his hands, and be subject to him. She was so profane, slave-like,
watching him, absorbed by him. It was not that she was interested in what he
said; she was absorbed by his self-revelation, by him, she wanted the
secret of him, the experience of his male being.
Gerald's face was lit up with an uncanny smile, full of light and rousedness,
yet unconscious. He sat with his arms on the table, his sunbrowned, rather
sinister hands, that were animal and yet very shapely and attractive, pushed
forward towards her. And they fascinated her. And she knew, she watched her
own fascination.
Other men had come to the table, to talk with Birkin and Halliday. Gerald
said in a low voice, apart, to Pussum:
`Where have you come back from?'
`From the country,' replied Pussum, in a very low, yet fully resonant voice.
Her face closed hard. Continually she glanced at Halliday, and then a black
flare came over her eyes. The heavy, fair young man ignored her completely; he
was really afraid of her. For some moments she would be unaware of Gerald. He
had not conquered her yet.
`And what has Halliday to do with it?' he asked, his voice still muted.
She would not answer for some seconds. Then she said, unwillingly:
`He made me go and live with him, and now he wants to throw me over. And yet
he won't let me go to anybody else. He wants me to live hidden in the country.
And then he says I persecute him, that he can't get rid of me.'
`Doesn't know his own mind,' said Gerald.
`He hasn't any mind, so he can't know it,' she said. `He waits for what
somebody tells him to do. He never does anything he wants to do himself
because he doesn't know what he wants. He's a perfect baby.'
Gerald looked at Halliday for some moments, watching the soft, rather
degenerate face of the young man. Its very softness was an attraction; it was a
soft, warm, corrupt nature, into which one might plunge with gratification.
`But he has no hold over you, has he?' Gerald asked.
`You see he made me go and live with him, when I didn't want to,' she
replied. `He came and cried to me, tears, you never saw so many, saying he
couldn't bear it unless I went back to him. And he wouldn't go away, he
would have stayed for ever. He made me go back. Then every time he behaves in
this fashion. And now I'm going to have a baby, he wants to give me a hundred
pounds and send me into the country, so that he would never see me nor hear of
me again. But I'm not going to do it, after '
A queer look came over Gerald's face.
`Are you going to have a child?' he asked incredulous. It seemed, to look at
her, impossible, she was so young and so far in spirit from any child-bearing.
She looked full into his face, and her dark, inchoate eyes had now a furtive
look, and a look of a knowledge of evil, dark and indomitable. A flame ran
secretly to his heart.
`Yes,' she said. `Isn't it beastly?'
`Don't you want it?' he asked.
`I don't,' she replied emphatically.
`But ' he said, `how long have you known?'
`Ten weeks,' she said.
All the time she kept her dark, inchoate eyes full upon him. He remained
silent, thinking. Then, switching off and becoming cold, he asked, in a voice
full of considerate kindness:
`Is there anything we can eat here? Is there anything you would like?'
`Yes,' she said, `I should adore some oysters.'
`All right,' he said. `We'll have oysters.' And he beckoned to the waiter.
Halliday took no notice, until the little plate was set before her. Then
suddenly he cried:
`Pussum, you can't eat oysters when you're drinking brandy.'
`What has it go to do with you?' she asked.
`Nothing, nothing,' he cried. `But you can't eat oysters when you're drinking
brandy.'
`I'm not drinking brandy,' she replied, and she sprinkled the last drops of
her liqueur over his face. He gave an odd squeal. She sat looking at him, as
if indifferent.
`Pussum, why do you do that?' he cried in panic. He gave Gerald the
impression that he was terrified of her, and that he loved his terror. He
seemed to relish his own horror and hatred of her, turn it over and extract
every flavour from it, in real panic. Gerald thought him a strange fool, and
yet piquant.
`But Pussum,' said another man, in a very small, quick Eton voice, `you
promised not to hurt him.'
`I haven't hurt him,' she answered.
`What will you drink?' the young man asked. He was dark, and smooth-skinned,
and full of a stealthy vigour.
`I don't like porter, Maxim,' she replied.
`You must ask for champagne,' came the whispering, gentlemanly voice of the
other.
Gerald suddenly realised that this was a hint to him.
`Shall we have champagne?' he asked, laughing.
`Yes please, dwy,' she lisped childishly.
Gerald watched her eating the oysters. She was delicate and finicking in her
eating, her fingers were fine and seemed very sensitive in the tips, so she put
her food apart with fine, small motions, she ate carefully, delicately. It
pleased him very much to see her, and it irritated Birkin. They were all
drinking champagne. Maxim, the prim young Russian with the smooth, warm-
coloured face and black, oiled hair was the only one who seemed to be perfectly
calm and sober. Birkin was white and abstract, unnatural, Gerald was smiling
with a constant bright, amused, cold light in his eyes, leaning a little
protectively towards the Pussum, who was very handsome, and soft, unfolded like
some red lotus in dreadful flowering nakedness, vainglorious now, flushed with
wine and with the excitement of men. Halliday looked foolish. One glass of
wine was enough to make him drunk and giggling. Yet there was always a
pleasant, warm naivete about him, that made him attractive.
`I'm not afwaid of anything except black-beetles,' said the Pussum, looking
up suddenly and staring with her black eyes, on which there seemed an unseeing
film of flame, fully upon Gerald. He laughed dangerously, from the blood. Her
childish speech caressed his nerves, and her burning, filmed eyes, turned now
full upon him, oblivious of all her antecedents, gave him a sort of licence.
`I'm not,' she protested. `I'm not afraid of other things. But black-
beetles ugh!' she shuddered convulsively, as if the very thought were too
much to bear.
`Do you mean,' said Gerald, with the punctiliousness of a man who has been
drinking, `that you are afraid of the sight of a black-beetle, or you are afraid
of a black-beetle biting you, or doing you some harm?'
`Do they bite?' cried the girl.
`How perfectly loathsome!' exclaimed Halliday.
`I don't know,' replied Gerald, looking round the table. `Do black-beetles
bite? But that isn't the point. Are you afraid of their biting, or is it a
metaphysical antipathy?'
The girl was looking full upon him all the time with inchoate eyes.
`Oh, I think they're beastly, they're horrid,' she cried. `If I see one, it
gives me the creeps all over. If one were to crawl on me, I'm sure I
should die I'm sure I should.'
`I hope not,' whispered the young Russian.
`I'm sure I should, Maxim,' she asseverated.
`Then one won't crawl on you,' said Gerald, smiling and knowing. In some
strange way he understood her.
`It's metaphysical, as Gerald says,' Birkin stated.
There was a little pause of uneasiness.
`And are you afraid of nothing else, Pussum?' asked the young Russian, in his
quick, hushed, elegant manner.
`Not weally,' she said. `I am afwaid of some things, but not weally the
same. I'm not afwaid of blood.'
`Not afwaid of blood!' exclaimed a young man with a thick, pale, jeering
face, who had just come to the table and was drinking whisky.
The Pussum turned on him a sulky look of dislike, low and ugly.
`Aren't you really afraid of blud?' the other persisted, a sneer all over his
face.
`No, I'm not,' she retorted.
`Why, have you ever seen blood, except in a dentist's spittoon?' jeered the
young man.
`I wasn't speaking to you,' she replied rather superbly.
`You can answer me, can't you?' he said.
For reply, she suddenly jabbed a knife across his thick, pale hand. He
started up with a vulgar curse.
`Show's what you are,' said the Pussum in contempt.
`Curse you,' said the young man, standing by the table and looking down at
her with acrid malevolence.
`Stop that,' said Gerald, in quick, instinctive command.
The young man stood looking down at her with sardonic contempt, a cowed,
self-conscious look on his thick, pale face. The blood began to flow from his
hand.
`Oh, how horrible, take it away!' squealed Halliday, turning green and
averting his face.
`D'you feel ill?' asked the sardonic young man, in some concern. `Do you
feel ill, Julius? Garn, it's nothing, man, don't give her the pleasure of
letting her think she's performed a feat don't give her the satisfaction, man
it's just what she wants.'
`Oh!' squealed Halliday.
`He's going to cat, Maxim,' said the Pussum warningly. The suave young
Russian rose and took Halliday by the arm, leading him away. Birkin, white and
diminished, looked on as if he were displeased. The wounded, sardonic young man
moved away, ignoring his bleeding hand in the most conspicuous fashion.
`He's an awful coward, really,' said the Pussum to Gerald. `He's got such an
influence over Julius.'
`Who is he?' asked Gerald.
`He's a Jew, really. I can't bear him.'
`Well, he's quite unimportant. But what's wrong with Halliday?'
`Julius's the most awful coward you've ever seen,' she cried. `He always
faints if I lift a knife he's tewwified of me.'
`H'm!' said Gerald.
`They're all afwaid of me,' she said. `Only the Jew thinks he's going to
show his courage. But he's the biggest coward of them all, really, because he's
afwaid what people will think about him and Julius doesn't care about that.'
`They've a lot of valour between them,' said Gerald good-humouredly.
The Pussum looked at him with a slow, slow smile. She was very handsome,
flushed, and confident in dreadful knowledge. Two little points of light
glinted on Gerald's eyes.
`Why do they call you Pussum, because you're like a cat?' he asked her.
`I expect so,' she said.
The smile grew more intense on his face.
`You are, rather; or a young, female panther.'
`Oh God, Gerald!' said Birkin, in some disgust.
They both looked uneasily at Birkin.
`You're silent tonight, Wupert,' she said to him, with a slight insolence,
being safe with the other man.
Halliday was coming back, looking forlorn and sick.
`Pussum,' he said, `I wish you wouldn't do these things Oh!' He sank in
his chair with a groan.
`You'd better go home,' she said to him.
`I will go home,' he said. `But won't you all come along. Won't you
come round to the flat?' he said to Gerald. `I should be so glad if you would.
Do that'll be splendid. I say?' He looked round for a waiter. `Get me a
taxi.' Then he groaned again. `Oh I do feel perfectly ghastly! Pussum, you
see what you do to me.'
`Then why are you such an idiot?' she said with sullen calm.
`But I'm not an idiot! Oh, how awful! Do come, everybody, it will be so
splendid. Pussum, you are coming. What? Oh but you must come, yes, you
must. What? Oh, my dear girl, don't make a fuss now, I feel perfectly Oh,
it's so ghastly Ho! er! Oh!'
`You know you can't drink,' she said to him, coldly.
`I tell you it isn't drink it's your disgusting behaviour, Pussum, it's
nothing else. Oh, how awful! Libidnikov, do let us go.'
`He's only drunk one glass only one glass,' came the rapid, hushed voice
of the young Russian.
They all moved off to the door. The girl kept near to Gerald, and seemed to
be at one in her motion with him. He was aware of this, and filled with demon-
satisfaction that his motion held good for two. He held her in the hollow of
his will, and she was soft, secret, invisible in her stirring there.
They crowded five of them into the taxi-cab. Halliday lurched in first, and
dropped into his seat against the other window. Then the Pussum took her place,
and Gerald sat next to her. They heard the young Russian giving orders to the
driver, then they were all seated in the dark, crowded close together, Halliday
groaning and leaning out of the window. They felt the swift, muffled motion
of the car.
The Pussum sat near to Gerald, and she seemed to become soft, subtly to
infuse herself into his bones, as if she were passing into him in a black,
electric flow. Her being suffused into his veins like a magnetic darkness, and
concentrated at the base of his spine like a fearful source of power. Meanwhile
her voice sounded out reedy and nonchalant, as she talked indifferently with
Birkin and with Maxim. Between her and Gerald was this silence and this black,
electric comprehension in the darkness. Then she found his hand, and grasped it
in her own firm, small clasp. It was so utterly dark, and yet such a naked
statement, that rapid vibrations ran through his blood and over his brain, he
was no longer responsible. Still her voice rang on like a bell, tinged with a
tone of mockery. And as she swung her head, her fine mane of hair just swept
his face, and all his nerves were on fire, as with a subtle friction of
electricity. But the great centre of his force held steady, a magnificent pride
to him, at the base of his spine.
They arrived at a large block of buildings, went up in a lift, and presently
a door was being opened for them by a Hindu. Gerald looked in surprise,
wondering if he were a gentleman, one of the Hindus down from Oxford, perhaps.
But no, he was the man-servant.
`Make tea, Hasan,' said Halliday.
`There is a room for me?' said Birkin.
To both of which questions the man grinned, and murmured.
He made Gerald uncertain, because, being tall and slender and reticent, he
looked like a gentleman.
`Who is your servant?' he asked of Halliday. `He looks a swell.'
`Oh yes that's because he's dressed in another man's clothes. He's
anything but a swell, really. We found him in the road, starving. So I took
him here, and another man gave him clothes. He's anything but what he seems to
be his only advantage is that he can't speak English and can't understand it,
so he's perfectly safe.'
`He's very dirty,' said the young Russian swiftly and silently.
Directly, the man appeared in the doorway.
`What is it?' said Halliday.
The Hindu grinned, and murmured shyly:
`Want to speak to master.'
Gerald watched curiously. The fellow in the doorway was goodlooking and
clean-limbed, his bearing was calm, he looked elegant, aristocratic. Yet he was
half a savage, grinning foolishly. Halliday went out into the corridor to speak
with him.
`What?' they heard his voice. `What? What do you say? Tell me again. What?
Want money? Want more money? But what do you want money for?' There was
the confused sound of the Hindu's talking, then Halliday appeared in the room,
smiling also foolishly, and saying:
`He says he wants money to buy underclothing. Can anybody lend me a
shilling? Oh thanks, a shilling will do to buy all the underclothes he wants.'
He took the money from Gerald and went out into the passage again, where they
heard him saying, `You can't want more money, you had three and six yesterday.
You mustn't ask for any more. Bring the tea in quickly.'
Gerald looked round the room. It was an ordinary London sitting-room in a
flat, evidently taken furnished, rather common and ugly. But there were several
negro statues, wood-carvings from West Africa, strange and disturbing, the
carved negroes looked almost like the foetus of a human being. One was a woman
sitting naked in a strange posture, and looking tortured, her abdomen stuck out.
The young Russian explained that she was sitting in child-birth, clutching the
ends of the band that hung from her neck, one in each hand, so that she could
bear down, and help labour. The strange, transfixed, rudimentary face of the
woman again reminded Gerald of a foetus, it was also rather wonderful, conveying
the suggestion of the extreme of physical sensation, beyond the limits of mental
consciousness.
`Aren't they rather obscene?' he asked, disapproving.
`I don't know,' murmured the other rapidly. `I have never defined the
obscene. I think they are very good.'
Gerald turned away. There were one or two new pictures in the room, in the
Futurist manner; there was a large piano. And these, with some ordinary London
lodging-house furniture of the better sort, completed the whole.
The Pussum had taken off her hat and coat, and was seated on the sofa. She
was evidently quite at home in the house, but uncertain, suspended. She did not
quite know her position. Her alliance for the time being was with Gerald, and
she did not know how far this was admitted by any of the men. She was
considering how she should carry off the situation. She was determined to have
her experience. Now, at this eleventh hour, she was not to be baulked. Her
face was flushed as with battle, her eye was brooding but inevitable.
The man came in with tea and a bottle of Kummel. He set the tray on a little
table before the couch.
`Pussum,' said Halliday, `pour out the tea.'
She did not move.
`Won't you do it?' Halliday repeated, in a state of nervous apprehension.
`I've not come back here as it was before,' she said. `I only came because
the others wanted me to, not for your sake.'
`My dear Pussum, you know you are your own mistress. I don't want you to do
anything but use the flat for your own convenience you know it, I've told you
so many times.'
She did not reply, but silently, reservedly reached for the tea-pot. They
all sat round and drank tea. Gerald could feel the electric connection between
him and her so strongly, as she sat there quiet and withheld, that another set
of conditions altogether had come to pass. Her silence and her immutability
perplexed him. How was he going to come to her? And yet he felt it quite
inevitable. He trusted completely to the current that held them. His
perplexity was only superficial, new conditions reigned, the old were surpassed;
here one did as one was possessed to do, no matter what it was.
Birkin rose. It was nearly one o'clock.
`I'm going to bed,' he said. `Gerald, I'll ring you up in the morning at
your place or you ring me up here.'
`Right,' said Gerald, and Birkin went out.
When he was well gone, Halliday said in a stimulated voice, to Gerald:
`I say, won't you stay here oh do!'
`You can't put everybody up,' said Gerald.
`Oh but I can, perfectly there are three more beds besides mine do
stay, won't you. Everything is quite ready there is always somebody here
I always put people up I love having the house crowded.'
`But there are only two rooms,' said the Pussum, in a cold, hostile voice,
`now Rupert's here.'
`I know there are only two rooms,' said Halliday, in his odd, high way of
speaking. `But what does that matter?'
He was smiling rather foolishly, and he spoke eagerly, with an insinuating
determination.
`Julius and I will share one room,' said the Russian in his discreet, precise
voice. Halliday and he were friends since Eton.
`It's very simple,' said Gerald, rising and pressing back his arms,
stretching himself. Then he went again to look at one of the pictures. Every
one of his limbs was turgid with electric force, and his back was tense like a
tiger's, with slumbering fire. He was very proud.
The Pussum rose. She gave a black look at Halliday, black and deadly, which
brought the rather foolishly pleased smile to that young man's face. Then she
went out of the room, with a cold good-night to them all generally.
There was a brief interval, they heard a door close, then Maxim said, in his
refined voice:
`That's all right.'
He looked significantly at Gerald, and said again, with a silent nod:
`That's all right you're all right.'
Gerald looked at the smooth, ruddy, comely face, and at the strange,
significant eyes, and it seemed as if the voice of the young Russian, so small
and perfect, sounded in the blood rather than in the air.
`I'm all right then,' said Gerald.
`Yes! Yes! You're all right,' said the Russian.
Halliday continued to smile, and to say nothing.
Suddenly the Pussum appeared again in the door, her small, childish face
looking sullen and vindictive.
`I know you want to catch me out,' came her cold, rather resonant voice. `But
I don't care, I don't care how much you catch me out.'
She turned and was gone again. She had been wearing a loose dressing-gown of
purple silk, tied round her waist. She looked so small and childish and
vulnerable, almost pitiful. And yet the black looks of her eyes made Gerald
feel drowned in some potent darkness that almost frightened him.
The men lit another cigarette and talked casually.
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