THE WARDEN
CHAPTER XI
Iphigenia
When Eleanor laid her head on her pillow that night, her mind
was anxiously intent on some plan by which she might extricate her
father from his misery; and, in her warm-hearted enthusiasm,
self-sacrifice was decided on as the means to be adopted. Was not
so good an Agamemnon worthy of an Iphigenia? She would herself
personally implore John Bold to desist from his undertaking; she
would explain to him her father’s sorrows, the cruel misery
of his position; she would tell him how her father would die if he
were thus dragged before the public and exposed to such unmerited
ignominy; she would appeal to his old friendship, to his
generosity, to his manliness, to his mercy; if need were, she would
kneel to him for the favour she would ask; but before she did this
the idea of love must be banished. There must be no bargain in the
matter. To his mercy, to his generosity, she could appeal; but as a
pure maiden, hitherto even unsolicited, she could not appeal to his
love, nor under such circumstances could she allow him to do so. Of
course, when so provoked he would declare his passion; that was to
be expected; there had been enough between them to make such a fact
sure; but it was equally certain that he must be rejected. She
could not be understood as saying, Make my father free and I am the
reward. There would be no sacrifice in that—not so had
Jephthah’s daughter saved her father— not so could she
show to that kindest, dearest of parents how much she was able to
bear for his good. No; to one resolve must her whole soul be bound;
and so resolving, she felt that she could make her great request to
Bold with as much self- assured confidence as she could have done
to his grandfather.
And now I own I have fears for my heroine; not as to the upshot
of her mission—not in the least as to that; as to the full
success of her generous scheme, and the ultimate result of such a
project, no one conversant with human nature and novels can have a
doubt; but as to the amount of sympathy she may receive from those
of her own sex. Girls below twenty and old ladies above sixty will
do her justice; for in the female heart the soft springs of sweet
romance reopen after many years, and again gush out with waters
pure as in earlier days, and greatly refresh the path that leads
downwards to the grave. But I fear that the majority of those
between these two eras will not approve of Eleanor’s plan. I
fear that unmarried ladies of thirty-five will declare that there
can be no probability of so absurd a project being carried through;
that young women on their knees before their lovers are sure to get
kissed, and that they would not put themselves in such a position
did they not expect it; that Eleanor is going to Bold only because
circumstances prevent Bold from coming to her; that she is
certainly a little fool, or a little schemer, but that in all
probability she is thinking a good deal more about herself than her
father.
Dear ladies, you are right as to your appreciation of the
circumstances, but very wrong as to Miss Harding’s character.
Miss Harding was much younger than you are, and could not,
therefore, know, as you may do, to what dangers such an encounter
might expose her. She may get kissed; I think it very probable that
she will; but I give my solemn word and positive assurance, that
the remotest idea of such a catastrophe never occurred to her as
she made the great resolve now alluded to.
And then she slept; and then she rose refreshed; and met her
father with her kindest embrace and most loving smiles; and on the
whole their breakfast was by no means so triste as had been their
dinner the day before; and then, making some excuse to her father
for so soon leaving him, she started on the commencement of her
operations.
She knew that John Bold was in London, and that, therefore, the
scene itself could not be enacted today; but she also knew that he
was soon to be home, probably on the next day, and it was necessary
that some little plan for meeting him should be concerted with his
sister Mary. When she got up to the house, she went, as usual, into
the morning sitting-room, and was startled by perceiving, by a
stick, a greatcoat, and sundry parcels which were lying about, that
Bold must already have returned.
‘John has come back so suddenly,’ said Mary, coming
into the room; ‘he has been travelling all night.’
‘Then I’ll come up again some other time,’
said Eleanor, about to beat a retreat in her sudden dismay.
‘He’s out now, and will be for the next two
hours,’ said the other; ‘he’s with that horrid
Finney; he only came to see him, and he returns by the mail train
tonight.’
Returns by the mail train tonight, thought Eleanor to herself,
as she strove to screw up her courage—away again
tonight—then it must be now or never; and she again sat down,
having risen to go. She wished the ordeal could have been
postponed: she had fully made up her mind to do the deed, but she
had not made up her mind to do it this very day; and now she felt
ill at ease, astray, and in difficulty.
‘Mary,’ she began, ‘I must see your brother
before he goes back.’
‘Oh yes, of course,’ said the other; ‘I know
he’ll be delighted to see you’; and she tried to treat
it as a matter of course, but she was not the less surprised; for
Mary and Eleanor had daily talked over John Bold and his conduct,
and his love, and Mary would insist on calling Eleanor her sister,
and would scold her for not calling Bold by his Christian name; and
Eleanor would half confess her love, but like a modest maiden would
protest against such familiarities even with the name of her lover;
and so they talked hour after hour, and Mary Bold, who was much the
elder, looked forward with happy confidence to the day when Eleanor
would not be ashamed to call her her sister. She was, however,
fully sure that just at present Eleanor would be much more likely
to avoid her brother than to seek him.
‘Mary, I must see your brother, now, today, and beg from
him a great favour’; and she spoke with a solemn air, not at
all usual to her; and then she went on, and opened to her friend
all her plan, her well-weighed scheme for saving her father from a
sorrow which would, she said, if it lasted, bring him to his grave.
‘But, Mary,’ she continued, ‘you must now, you
know, cease any joking about me and Mr Bold; you must now say no
more about that; I am not ashamed to beg this favour from your
brother, but when I have done so, there can never be anything
further between us’; and this she said with a staid and
solemn air, quite worthy of Jephthah’s daughter or of
Iphigenia either.
It was quite clear that Mary Bold did not follow the argument.
That Eleanor Harding should appeal, on behalf of her father, to
Bold’s better feelings seemed to Mary quite natural; it
seemed quite natural that he should relent, overcome by such filial
tears, and by so much beauty; but, to her thinking, it was at any
rate equally natural, that having relented, John should put his arm
round his mistress’s waist, and say: ‘Now having
settled that, let us be man and wife, and all will end
happily!’ Why his good nature should not be rewarded, when
such reward would operate to the disadvantage of none, Mary, who
had more sense than romance, could not understand; and she said as
much.
Eleanor, however, was firm, and made quite an eloquent speech to
support her own view of the question: she could not condescend, she
said, to ask such a favour on any other terms than those proposed.
Mary might, perhaps, think her high- flown, but she had her own
ideas, and she could not submit to sacrifice her self-respect.
‘But I am sure you love him—don’t you?’
pleaded Mary; ‘and I am sure he loves you better than
anything in the world.’
Eleanor was going to make another speech, but a tear came to
each eye, and she could not; so she pretended to blow her nose, and
walked to the window, and made a little inward call on her own
courage, and finding herself somewhat sustained, said
sententiously: ‘Mary, this is nonsense.’
‘But you do love him,’ said Mary, who had followed
her friend to the window, and now spoke with her arms close wound
round the other’s waist. ‘You do love him with all your
heart—you know you do; I defy you to deny it.’
‘I—’ commenced Eleanor, turning sharply round
to refute the charge; but the intended falsehood stuck in her
throat, and never came to utterance. She could not deny her love,
so she took plentifully to tears, and leant upon her friend’s
bosom and sobbed there, and protested that, love or no love, it
would make no difference in her resolve, and called Mary, a
thousand times, the most cruel of girls, and swore her to secrecy
by a hundred oaths, and ended by declaring that the girl who could
betray her friend’s love, even to a brother, would be as
black a traitor as a soldier in a garrison who should open the city
gates to the enemy. While they were yet discussing the matter, Bold
returned, and Eleanor was forced into sudden action: she had either
to accomplish or abandon her plan; and having slipped into her
friend’s bedroom, as the gentleman closed the hall door, she
washed the marks of tears from her eyes, and resolved within
herself to go through with it. ‘Tell him I am here,’
said she, ‘and coming in; and mind, whatever you do,
don’t leave us.’ So Mary informed her brother, with a
somewhat sombre air, that Miss Harding was in the next room, and
was coming to speak to him.
Eleanor was certainly thinking more of her father than herself,
as she arranged her hair before the glass, and removed the traces
of sorrow from her face; and yet I should be untrue if I said that
she was not anxious to appear well before her lover: why else was
she so sedulous with that stubborn curl that would rebel against
her hand, and smooth so eagerly her ruffled ribands? why else did
she damp her eyes to dispel the redness, and bite her pretty lips
to bring back the colour? Of course she was anxious to look her
best, for she was but a mortal angel after all. But had she been
immortal, had she flitted back to the sitting-room on a
cherub’s wings, she could not have had a more faithful heart,
or a truer wish to save her father at any cost to herself.
John Bold had not met her since the day when she left him in
dudgeon in the cathedral close. Since that his whole time had been
occupied in promoting the cause against her father, and not
unsuccessfully. He had often thought of her, and turned over in his
mind a hundred schemes for showing her how disinterested was his
love. He would write to her and beseech her not to allow the
performance of a public duty to injure him in her estimation; he
would write to Mr Harding, explain all his views, and boldly claim
the warden’s daughter, urging that the untoward circumstances
between them need be no bar to their ancient friendship, or to a
closer tie; he would throw himself on his knees before his
mistress; he would wait and marry the daughter when the father has
lost his home and his income; he would give up the lawsuit and go
to Australia, with her of course, leaving The Jupiter and Mr Finney
to complete the case between them. Sometimes as he woke in the
morning fevered and impatient, he would blow out his brains and
have done with all his cares—but this idea was generally
consequent on an imprudent supper enjoyed in company with Tom
Towers.
How beautiful Eleanor appeared to him as she slowly walked into
the room! Not for nothing had all those little cares been taken.
Though her sister, the archdeacon’s wife, had spoken
slightingly of her charms, Eleanor was very beautiful when seen
aright. Hers was not of those impassive faces, which have the
beauty of a marble bust; finely chiselled features, perfect in
every line, true to the rules of symmetry, as lovely to a stranger
as to a friend, unvarying unless in sickness, or as age affects
them. She had no startling brilliancy of beauty, no pearly
whiteness, no radiant carnation. She had not the majestic contour
that rivets attention, demands instant wonder and then disappoints
by the coldness of its charms. You might pass Eleanor Harding in
the street without notice, but you could hardly pass an evening
with her and not lose your heart.
She had never appeared more lovely to her lover than she now
did. Her face was animated though it was serious, and her full dark
lustrous eyes shone with anxious energy; her hand trembled as she
took his, and she could hardly pronounce his name, when she
addressed him. Bold wished with all his heart that the Australian
scheme was in the act of realisation, and that he and Eleanor were
away together, never to hear further of the lawsuit.
He began to talk, asked after her health—said something
about London being very stupid, and more about Barchester being
very pleasant; declared the weather to be very hot, and then
inquired after Mr Harding.
‘My father is not very well,’ said Eleanor.
John Bold was very sorry, so sorry: he hoped it was nothing
serious, and put on the unmeaningly solemn face which people
usually use on such occasions.
‘I especially want to speak to you about my father, Mr
Bold; indeed, I am now here on purpose to do so. Papa is very
unhappy, very unhappy indeed, about this affair of the hospital:
you would pity him, Mr Bold, if you could see how wretched it has
made him.’
‘Oh, Miss Harding!’
‘Indeed you would—anyone would pity him; but a
friend, an old friend as you are—indeed you would. He is an
altered man; his cheerfulness has all gone, and his sweet temper,
and his kind happy tone of voice; you would hardly know him if you
saw him, Mr Bold, he is so much altered; and—and—if
this goes on, he will die.’ Here Eleanor had recourse to her
handkerchief, and so also had her auditors; but she plucked up her
courage, and went on with her tale. ‘He will break his heart,
and die. I am sure, Mr Bold, it was not you who wrote those cruel
things in the newspaper—’
John Bold eagerly protested that it was not, but his heart smote
him as to his intimate alliance with Tom Towers.
‘No, I am sure it was not; and papa has not for a moment
thought so; you would not be so cruel—but it has nearly
killed him. Papa cannot bear to think that people should so speak
of him, and that everybody should hear him so spoken of:—they
have called him avaricious, and dishonest, and they say he is
robbing the old men, and taking the money of the hospital for
nothing.’
‘I have never said so, Miss Harding. I—’
‘No,’ continued Eleanor, interrupting him, for she
was now in the full flood-tide of her eloquence; ‘no, I am
sure you have not; but others have said so; and if this goes on, if
such things are written again, it will kill papa. Oh! Mr Bold, if
you only knew the state he is in! Now papa does not care much about
money.’
Both her auditors, brother and sister, assented to this, and
declared on their own knowledge that no man lived less addicted to
filthy lucre than the warden.
‘Oh! it’s so kind of you to say so, Mary, and of you
too, Mr Bold. I couldn’t bear that people should think
unjustly of papa. Do you know he would give up the hospital
altogether, only he cannot. The archdeacon says it would be
cowardly, and that he would be deserting his order, and injuring
the church. Whatever may happen, papa will not do that: he would
leave the place tomorrow willingly, and give up his house, and the
income and all if the archdeacon—’
Eleanor was going to say ‘would let him,’ but she
stopped herself before she had compromised her father’s
dignity; and giving a long sigh, she added—‘Oh, I do so
wish he would.’
‘No one who knows Mr Harding personally accuses him for a
moment,’ said Bold. ‘It is he that has to bear the
punishment; it is he that suffers,’ said Eleanor; ‘and
what for? what has he done wrong? how has he deserved this
persecution? he that never had an unkind thought in his life, he
that never said an unkind word!’ and here she broke down, and
the violence of her sobs stopped her utterance.
Bold, for the fifth or sixth time, declared that neither he nor
any of his friends imputed any blame personally to Mr Harding.
‘Then why should he be persecuted?’ ejaculated
Eleanor through her tears, forgetting in her eagerness that her
intention had been to humble herself as a suppliant before John
Bold— ‘why should he be singled out for scorn and
disgrace? why should he be made so wretched? Oh! Mr
Bold’—and she turned towards him as though the kneeling
scene were about to be commenced—‘oh! Mr Bold, why did
you begin all this? You, whom we all
so—so—valued!’
To speak the truth, the reformer’s punishment was
certainly come upon him, for his present plight was not enviable;
he had nothing for it but to excuse himself by platitudes about
public duty, which it is by no means worth while to repeat, and to
reiterate his eulogy on Mr Harding’s character. His position
was certainly a cruel one: had any gentleman called upon him on
behalf of Mr Harding he could of course have declined to enter upon
the subject; but how could he do so with a beautiful girl, with the
daughter of the man whom he had injured, with his own love?
In the meantime Eleanor recollected herself, and again summoned
up her energies. ‘Mr Bold,’ said she, ‘I have
come here to implore you to abandon this proceeding.’ He
stood up from his seat, and looked beyond measure distressed.
‘To implore you to abandon it, to implore you to spare my
father, to spare either his life or his reason, for one or the
other will pay the forfeit if this goes on. I know how much I am
asking, and how little right I have to ask anything; but I think
you will listen to me as it is for my father. Oh, Mr Bold, pray,
pray do this for us—pray do not drive to distraction a man
who has loved you so well.’
She did not absolutely kneel to him, but she followed him as he
moved from his chair, and laid her soft hands imploringly upon his
arm. Ah! at any other time how exquisitely valuable would have been
that touch! but now he was distraught, dumbfounded and unmanned.
What could he say to that sweet suppliant; how explain to her that
the matter now was probably beyond his control; how tell her that
he could not quell the storm which he had raised?
‘Surely, surely, John, you cannot refuse her,’ said
his sister.
‘I would give her my soul,’ said he, ‘if it
would serve her.’ ‘Oh, Mr Bold,’ said Eleanor,
‘do not speak so; I ask nothing for myself; and what I ask
for my father, it cannot harm you to grant.’
‘I would give her my soul, if it would serve her,’
said Bold, still addressing his sister; ‘everything I have is
hers, if she will accept it; my house, my heart, my all; every hope
of my breast is centred in her; her smiles are sweeter to me than
the sun, and when I see her in sorrow as she now is, every nerve in
my body suffers. No man can love better than I love her.’
‘No, no, no,’ ejaculated Eleanor; ‘there can
be no talk of love between us. Will you protect my father from the
evil you have brought upon him?’
‘Oh, Eleanor, I will do anything; let me tell you how I
love you!’
‘No, no, no!’ she almost screamed. ‘This is
unmanly of you, Mr Bold. Will you, will you, will you leave my
father to die in peace in his quiet home?’ and seizing him by
his arm and hand, she followed him across the room towards the
door. ‘I will not leave you till you promise me; I’ll
cling to you in the street; I’ll kneel to you before all the
people. You shall promise me this, you shall promise me this, you
shall—’ And she clung to him with fixed tenacity, and
reiterated her resolve with hysterical passion.
‘Speak to her, John; answer her,’ said Mary,
bewildered by the unexpected vehemence of Eleanor’s manner;
‘you cannot have the cruelty to refuse her.’
‘Promise me, promise me,’ said Eleanor; ‘say
that my father is safe—one word will do. I know how true you
are; say one word, and I will let you go.’
She still held him, and looked eagerly into his face, with her
hair dishevelled and her eyes all bloodshot. She had no thought now
of herself, no care now for her appearance; and yet he thought he
had never seen her half so lovely; he was amazed at the intensity
of her beauty, and could hardly believe that it was she whom he had
dared to love. ‘Promise me,’ said she; ‘I will
not leave you till you have promised me.’
‘I will,’ said he at length; ‘I do—all I
can do, I will do.’
‘Then may God Almighty bless you for ever and ever!’
said Eleanor; and falling on her knees with her face in
Mary’s lap, she wept and sobbed like a child: her strength
had carried her through her allotted task, but now it was well nigh
exhausted.
In a while she was partly recovered, and got up to go, and would
have gone, had not Bold made her understand that it was necessary
for him to explain to her how far it was in his power to put an end
to the proceedings which had been taken against Mr Harding. Had he
spoken on any other subject, she would have vanished, but on that
she was bound to hear him; and now the danger of her position
commenced. While she had an active part to play, while she clung to
him as a suppliant, it was easy enough for her to reject his
proffered love, and cast from her his caressing words; but
now—now that he had yielded, and was talking to her calmly
and kindly as to her father’s welfare, it was hard enough for
her to do so. Then Mary Bold assisted her; but now she was quite on
her brother’s side. Mary said but little, but every word she
did say gave some direct and deadly blow. The first thing she did
was to make room for her brother between herself and Eleanor on the
sofa: as the sofa was full large for three, Eleanor could not
resent this, nor could she show suspicion by taking another seat;
but she felt it to be a most unkind proceeding. And then Mary would
talk as though they three were joined in some close peculiar bond
together; as though they were in future always to wish together,
contrive together, and act together; and Eleanor could not gainsay
this; she could not make another speech, and say, ‘Mr Bold
and I are strangers, Mary, and are always to remain so!’
He explained to her that, though undoubtedly the proceeding
against the hospital had commenced solely with himself, many others
were now interested in the matter, some of whom were much more
influential than himself; that it was to him alone, however, that
the lawyers looked for instruction as to their doings, and, more
important still, for the payment of their bills; and he promised
that he would at once give them notice that it was his intention to
abandon the cause. He thought, he said, that it was not probable
that any active steps would be taken after he had seceded from the
matter, though it was possible that some passing allusion might
still be made to the hospital in the daily Jupiter. He promised,
however, that he would use his best influence to prevent any
further personal allusion being made to Mr Harding. He then
suggested that he would on that afternoon ride over himself to Dr
Grantly, and inform him of his altered intentions on the subject,
and with this view, he postponed his immediate return to
London.
This was all very pleasant, and Eleanor did enjoy a sort of
triumph in the feeling that she had attained the object for which
she had sought this interview; but still the part of Iphigenia was
to be played out. The gods had heard her prayer, granted her
request, and were they not to have their promised sacrifice?
Eleanor was not a girl to defraud them wilfully; so, as soon as she
decently could, she got up for her bonnet.
‘Are you going so soon?’ said Bold, who half an hour
since would have given a hundred pounds that he was in London, and
she still at Barchester.
‘Oh yes!’ said she. ‘I am so much obliged to
you; papa will feel this to be so kind.’ She did not quite
appreciate all her father’s feelings. ‘Of course I must
tell him, and I will say that you will see the
archdeacon.’
‘But may I not say one word for myself?’ said
Bold.
‘I’ll fetch you your bonnet, Eleanor,’ said
Mary, in the act of leaving the room.
‘Mary, Mary,’ said she, getting up and catching her
by her dress; ‘don’t go, I’ll get my bonnet
myself.’ But Mary, the traitress, stood fast by the door, and
permitted no such retreat. Poor Iphigenia!
And with a volley of impassioned love, John Bold poured forth
the feelings of his heart, swearing, as men do, some truths and
many falsehoods; and Eleanor repeated with every shade of vehemence
the ‘No, no, no,’ which had had a short time since so
much effect; but now, alas! its strength was gone. Let her be never
so vehement, her vehemence was not respected; all her ‘No,
no, no’s’ were met with counter-asseverations, and at
last were overpowered. The ground was cut from under her on every
side. She was pressed to say whether her father would object;
whether she herself had any aversion (aversion! God help her, poor
girl! the word nearly made her jump into his arms); any other
preference (this she loudly disclaimed); whether it was impossible
that she should love him (Eleanor could not say that it was
impossible): and so at last all her defences demolished, all her
maiden barriers swept away, she capitulated, or rather marched out
with the honours of war, vanquished evidently, palpably vanquished,
but still not reduced to the necessity of confessing it.
And so the altar on the shore of the modern Aulis reeked with no
sacrifice.