On the Face of the Waters
BOOK V
CHAPTER VI
REWARDS AND PUNISHMENTS.
So the strain of months was over on the Ridge. Delhi was taken; the
Queen's health was being drunk night after night in the Palace of the
Moghuls. But there was one person to whom the passing days brought a
growing anxiety. This was Kate Erlton; for there were no tidings of
Jim Douglas. None.
At first she had comforted herself with the idea that he was still,
for some reason or another, keeping to the yet unconquered part of the
city; that he was obliged to do so being impossible, the long files of
women and children seeking safety and passing through the Ridge
fearlessly precluding that consolation. Still it was conceivable he
might be busy, though it seemed strange he should have sent no word.
So, like many another in India at that time, she waited, hoping
against hope, possessing her soul in patience. She had no lack of
occupation to distract her. How could there be for a woman, when close
on twelve hundred men had come back from the city dead or wounded?
But now the 21st of September was upon them. The city was occupied,
the work was over. Yet Captain Morecombe, coming back from it, shook
his head. He had spent time and trouble in the search, but had
failed—failed even, from Kate's limited ideas of their locality, to
find either Tara's lodging or the roof in the Mufti's quarter. She
could have found them herself, she said almost pathetically; but of
course that was impossible now, and would be so for some time to come.
"I'm afraid it is no use, Mrs. Erlton," said the Captain kindly.
"There is not a trace to be found, even by Hodson's spies. Unless he
is shut up somewhere, he—he must be dead. It is so likely that he
should be; you must see that. Possibly before the siege began. Let us
hope so."
"Why?" she asked quickly. "You mean that there have been horrible
things done of late?—things like that poor soldier who was found
chained outside the Cashmere gate as a target for his fellows? Have
there? I would so much rather know the worst,—I used always to tell
Mr. Douglas so,—it prevents one dreaming at night." She shivered as
she spoke, and the man watching her felt his heart go out toward her
with a throb of pity. How long, he wondered irrelevantly, would it
take her to forget the miserable tragedy, to be ready for consolation?
"Yes, there have been terrible things on both sides. There always are.
You can't help it when you sack cities," he replied, interrupting
himself hastily with a sort of shame. "The Ghoorkhas had the devil in
them when I was down in the Mufti's quarter. They shot dozens of
helpless learned people in the Chelon-ke-kucha—one who coached me up
for my exams. And about twelve women in the house of a 'Professor of
Arabic'—so he styled himself—jumped down the wall to escape—their
own fears chiefly. For the men wanted loot, nothing else. That is the
worst of it. The whole story from beginning to end seems so needless.
It is as if Fate——"
She interrupted him quietly, "It has been Fate. Fate from beginning to
end."
He sat for an instant with a grave face, then looked up with a smile.
"Perhaps. It's rather apropos des bottes, Mrs. Erlton, but I wanted
to ask you a question. Hadn't you a white cockatoo, once? When you
first came here. I seem to recollect the bird making a row in the
veranda when I used to drive up."
Her face grew suddenly pale, she sat staring at him with dread in her
eyes. "Yes!" she replied with a manifest effort, "I gave it to Sonny
Seymour because—because it loved him——" She broke off, then added
swiftly, eagerly, "What then?"
"Only that I found one in the Palace to-day. There is a jolly marble
latticed balcony overlooking the river. The King used to write his
poetry there, they say. Well! I saw a brass cage hanging high up on a
hook—there has been no loot in the precincts, you know, for the Staff
has annexed them; I thought the cage was empty till I took it down
from sheer curiosity, and there was a dead cockatoo."
"Dead!" echoed Kate, with a quick smile of relief. "Oh! how glad I am
it was dead."
Captain Morecombe stared at her. "Poor brute!" he said under his
breath. "It was skin and bone. Starved to death. I expect they forgot
all about it when they got really frightened. They are cruel devils,
Mrs. Erlton."
The Major had used the self-same words to Alice Gissing eighteen
months before, and in the same connection. But, perhaps fortunately
for Kate in her present state of nervous strain, that knowledge was
denied to her. Even so the coincidence of the bird itself absorbed
her.
"It had a yellow crest," she began.
"Oh! then it couldn't have been yours," interrupted Captain Morecombe,
rather relieved, for he saw that he had somehow touched on a hidden
wound. "This one was green; yellowish green. I dare say the King kept
pets like the Oude man——"
"It is dead anyhow," said Kate hurriedly.
And the knowledge gave her an unreasoning comfort. To begin with, it
seemed to her as if those fateful white wings, which had begun to
overshadow her world on that sunny evening down by the Goomtee river,
had ceased to hover over it. And then this rounding of the tale—for
that the bird was little Sonny's favorite she did not doubt—made her
feel that Fate would not leave that other portion of it unfinished.
The inevitable sequence would be worked out somehow. She would hear
something. So once more she waited like many another; waiting with
eyes strained past the last known deed of gallantry for the end which
surely must have been nobler still. When that knowledge came, she told
herself, she would be content.
Yet there was another thing which held her to hope even more than
this; it was the remembrance of John Nicholson's words, "If ever you
have a chance of making up." They seemed prophetic; for he who spoke
them was so often right. Men talking of him as he lingered, watching,
advising, warning, despite dire agony of pain and drowsiness of
morphia, said there was none like him for clear insight into the very
heart of things.
Yet he, as he lay without a complaint, was telling himself he had been
blind. He had sought more from his world than there was in it. And so,
though the news of the capture of the Burn Bastion brought a brief
rally, he sank steadily.
But Hodson, coming into his tent to tell him of the safe capture of
the King and Queen upon the 21st at Humayon's Tomb, found him eager to
hear all particulars. So eager, that when the Sirdars of the Mooltanee
Horse (a regiment he had practically raised), who sat outside in
dozens waiting for every breath of news about their fetish, would not
keep quiet, he emphasized his third order by a revolver bullet through
the wall of the tent. Greatly to their delight since, as they retired
further off, they agreed that Nikalseyn was Nikalseyn still; and
surely death dare not claim one so full of life?
Even Hodson smiled in the swift silence in which the laboring breath
of the dying man could be heard.
"Well, sir," he went on, "as I was saying, I got permission, thanks to
you, to utilize my information——"
"You mean Rujjub Ali's and that sneak Elahi Buksh's, I suppose," put
in Nicholson. "It was sharp work. The King only went to Humayon's Tomb
yesterday. They must have had it all cut and dried before, surely?"
"The Queen has been trying to surrender on terms some time back, sir,"
replied Hodson hastily. "She has a lot of treasure—eight lakhs, the
spies tell me—and is anxious to keep it. However, to go on. After
stopping with Elahi Buksh that night—no doubt, as you say, pressure
was put on them then—they went off, as agreed, to meet Bukht Khân,
but refused to go with him. Of course the promise of their lives——"
"Then you were negotiating already?"
"Not exactly—but—but I couldn't have done without the promise unless
Wilson had agreed to send out troops, and he wouldn't. So I had to
give in, though personally I would a deal rather have brought the old
man in dead, than alive. Well, I set off this morning with fifty of my
horse and sent in the two messengers while I waited outside. It was
nearly two hours before they came back, for the old man was hard to
move. Zeenut Maihl was the screw, and when Bahâdur Shâh talked of his
ancestors and wept, told him he should have thought of that before he
let Bukht Khân and the army go. In fact she did the business for me;
but she stipulated for a promise of life from my own lips. So I rode
out alone to the causeway by the big gate—it is a splendid place,
sir; more like a mosque than a tomb, and drew up to attention. Zeenut
Maihl came out first, swinging along in her curtained dhooli, and
Rujjub, who was beside me, called out her name and titles decorously.
I couldn't help feeling it was a bit of a scene, you know; my being
there, alone, and all that. Then the King came in his palkee; so I
rode up, and demanded his sword. He asked if I were Hodson-sahib
bahâdur and if I would ratify the promise? So I had to choke over it,
for there were two or three thousand of a crowd by this time. Then we
came away. It was a long five miles at a footpace, with that crowd
following us until we neared the city. Then they funked. Besides I had
said openly I'd shoot the King like a dog despite the promise at the
first sign of rescue. And that's all, except that you should have seen
the officer's face at the Lahore gate when he asked me what I'd got in
tow, and I said calmly, 'Only the King of Delhi.' So that is done."
"And well done," said Nicholson briefly, reaching out a parched right
hand. "Well done, from the beginning to the end."
Hodson flushed up like a girl. "I'm glad to hear you say so, sir," he
replied as nonchalantly as he could, "but personally, of course, I
would rather have brought him in dead."
Even that slight action, however, had left Nicholson breathless, and
the only comment for a time came from his eyes; bright, questioning
eyes, seeking now with a sort of pathetic patience to grasp the world
they were leaving, and make allowances for all shortcomings.
"And now for the Princes," said Hodson. "Did you write to Wilson,
sir?"
Nicholson nodded, "I think he'll consent. Only—only don't make any
more promises, Hodson. Some of them must be hung; they deserve death."
His hearer gave rather an uneasy look at the clear eyes, and remarked
sharply: "You thought they deserved more than hanging once, sir."
The old imperious frown of quick displeasure at all challenge came to
John Nicholson's face, then faded into a half-smile. "I was not so
near death myself. It makes a difference. So good-by, Hodson. I mayn't
see you again." He paused, and his smile grew clearer, and strangely
soft. "No news, I suppose, of that poor fellow Douglas, who didn't
agree with us?"
"None, sir; I warned him it was useless and foolhardy to go back when
my information——"
"No doubt," interrupted the dying man gently. "Still, I'd have gone in
his place." He lay still for a moment, then murmured to himself. "So
he is on the way before me. Well! I don't think we can be unhappy
after death. And, as for that poor lady—when you see her, Hodson,
tell her I am sorry—sorry she hadn't her chance." The last words were
once more murmured to himself and ended in silence.
Kate Erlton, however, did not get the message which would, perhaps,
have ended her lingering hope. Major Hodson was too busy to deliver
it. Permission to capture the Princes was given him that very night,
and early the next morning he set off to Humayon's Tomb once more,
with his two spies, his second in command, and about a hundred
troopers. A small party indeed, to face the four or five thousand
Palace refugees who were known to be in hiding about the tomb, waiting
to see if the Princes could make terms like the King had done. But
Hodson's orders were strict. He was to bring in Mirza Moghul and Khair
Sultân, ex-Commanders-in-Chief, and Abool-Bukr, heir presumptive,
unconditionally, or not at all.
The morning was deliciously cool and crisp, full of that promise of
winter, which in its perfection of climate consoles the Punjabee for
six months of purgatory. The sun sent a yellow flood of light over the
endless ruins of ancient Delhi, which here extend for miles on miles.
A nasty country for skulking enemies; but Hodson's pluck and dash were
equal to anything, and he rode along with a heart joyous at his
chance; full of determination to avail himself of it and gain renown.
Someone else, however, was early astir on this the 22d of September,
so as to reach Humayon's Tomb in time to press on to the Kutb, if
needs be. This was the Princess Farkhoonda Zamâni. Ever since that
day, now more than a week past, when the last message to the city had
warned her that the supreme moment for the House of Timoor was at
hand, and she had started from her study of Holy Writ, telling herself
piteously that she must find Prince Abool-Bukr—must, at all sacrifice
to pride, seek him, since he would not seek her—must warn him and
keep his hand in hers again—she had been distracted by the
impossibility of carrying out her decision. For, expecting an
immediate sack of the town, the Mufti's people had barricaded the only
exit bazaar-ward, and when, after a day or two, she did succeed in
creeping out, it was to find the streets unsafe, the Palace itself
closed against all. But now, at least, there was a chance. Like all
the royal family, she knew of these two spies, Rujjub-Ali and Mirza
Elahi Buksh, who was saving his skin by turning Queen's evidence. She
knew of Hodson sahib's promise to the King and Queen. She knew that
Abool-Bukr was still in hiding with the arch-offenders, Mirza Moghul
and Khair Sultân, at Humayon's Tomb. Such an association was fatal;
but if she could persuade him to throw over his uncles, and go with
her, and if, afterward, she could open negotiations with the
Englishmen, and prove that Abool-Bukr had been dismissed from office
on the very day of the death challenge, had been in disgrace ever
since—had even been condemned to death by the King; surely she might
yet drag her dearest from the net into which Zeenut Maihl had lured
him—with what bait she scarcely trusted herself to think! The first
thing to be done, therefore, was to persuade Abool to come with her to
some safer hiding. She would risk all; her pride, her reputation, his
very opinion of her, for this. And surely a man of his nature was to
be tempted. So she put on her finest clothes, her discarded jewels,
and set off about noon in a ruth—a sort of curtain-dhoolie on wheels
drawn by oxen, gay with trappings, and set with jingling bells. They
let her pass at the Delhi gate, after a brief look through the
curtains, during which she cowered into a corner without covering her
face, lest they might think her a man, and stop her.
"By George! that was a pretty woman," said the English subaltern who
passed her, as he came back to the guard-room. "Never saw such eyes in
my life. They were as soft, as soft as—well! I don't know what. And
they looked, somehow, as if they have been crying for years, and—and
as if they saw—saw something, you know."
"They saw you—you sentimental idiot—that's enough to make any woman
cry," retorted his companion. And then the two, mere boys, wild with
success and high spirits, fell to horse-play over the insult.
Yet the first boy was right. Newâsi's eyes had seen something day and
night, night and day, ever since they had strained into the darkness
after Prince Abool-Bukr when he broke from the kind detaining hand and
disappeared from the Mufti's quarter. And that something was a flood
of sunlight holding a figure, as she had seen it more than once, in a
wild unreasoning paroxysm of sheer terror. It seemed to her as if she
could hear those white lips gasping once more over the cry which
brought the vision. "Why didst not let me live mine own life, die mine
own death? but to die—to die needlessly—to die in the sunlight
perhaps."
There was a flood of it now outside the ruth as it lumbered
along by the jail, not a quarter of a mile yet from the city gate.
Half-shivering she peeped through the gay patchwork curtains to assure
herself it held no horror.
God and his Holy Prophet! What was that crowd on the road ahead? No,
not ahead, she was in it, now, so that the oxen paused, unable to go
on. A crowd, a cluster of spear-points, and then, against the jail
wall, an open space round another ruth, an Englishman on foot, three
figures stripped. No; not three! only two, for one had fallen as the
crack of a carbine rang through the startled air. Two? But one, now,
and that, oh! saints have mercy! the vision! the vision! It was Abool,
dodging like a hare, begging for bare life; seeking it, at last, out
of the sunshine, under the shadow of the ruth wheels.
"Abool! Abool!" she screamed. "I am here. Come! I am here."
Did he hear the kind voice? He may have, for it echoed clear before
the third and final crack of the carbine. So clear that the driver,
terrified lest it should bring like punishment on him, drove his goad
into the oxen; and the next instant they were careering madly down a
side road, bumping over watercourses and ditches. But Newâsi felt no
more buffetings. She lay huddled up inside, as unconscious as that
other figure which, by Major Hodson's orders, was being dragged out
from under the wheels and placed upon it beside the two other corpses
for conveyance to the city. And none of all the crowd, ready—so the
tale runs—to rescue the Princes lest death should be their portion in
the future, raised voice or hand to avenge them now that it had come
so ruthlessly, so wantonly. Perhaps the English guard at the Delhi
gate cowed them, as it had cowed those who the day before had followed
the King so far, then slunk away.
So the little cortège moved on peacefully; far more peacefully
than the other ruth, which, with its unconscious burden, was racing
Kutb-ward as if it was afraid of the very sunshine. But the Princess
Farkhoonda, huddled up in all her jewels and fineries, had forgotten
even that; forgotten even that vision seen in it.
But Hodson as he rode at ease behind the dead Princes seemed to court
the light. He gloried in the deed, telling himself that "in less than
twenty-four hours he had disposed of the principal members of the
House of Timoor"; so fulfilling his own words written weeks before,
"If I get into the Palace, the House of Timoor will not be worth five
minutes' purchase, I ween." Telling himself also, that in shooting
down with his own hand men who had surrendered without stipulations to
his generosity and clemency, surrendered to a hundred troopers when
they had five thousand men behind them, he "had rid the earth of
ruffians." Telling himself that he was "glad to have had the
opportunity, and was game to face the moral risk of praise or blame."
He got the former unstintingly from most of his fellows as, in
triumphant procession, the bodies were taken to the chief police
station, there to be exposed, so say eye-witnesses, "In the very spot
where, four months before, Englishwomen had been outraged and
murdered, in the very place where their helpless victims had lain."
A strange perversion of the truth, responsible, perhaps, not only for
the praise, but for the very deed itself; so Mohammed Ismail's barter
of his truth and soul for the lives of the forty prisoners at the
Kolwâb counted for nothing in the judgment of this world.
But Hodson lacked either praise or blame from one man. John Nicholson
lay too near the judgment of another world to be disturbed by vexed
questions in this; and when the next morning came, men, meeting each
other, said sadly, "He is dead."
The news, brought to Kate Erlton by Captain Morecombe when he came
over to report another failure, took the heart out of even her hope.
"There is no use in my staying longer, I'm afraid," she said quietly.
"I'm only in the way. I will go back to Meerut; and then home—to the
boy."
"I think it would be best," he replied kindly. "I can arrange for you
to start to-morrow morning. You will be the better for a change; it
will help you to forget."
She smiled a little bitterly; but when he had gone she set to work,
packing up such of her husband's things as she wished the boy to have
with calm deliberation; and early in the afternoon went over to the
garden of her old house to get some fresh flowers for what would be
her last visit to that rear-guard of graves. To take, also, her last
look at the city, and watch it grow mysterious in the glamour of
sunset. Seen from afar it seemed unchanged. A mass of rosy light and
lilac shadow, with the great white dome of the mosque hanging airily
above the smoke wreaths.
Yet the end had come to its four months' dream as it had come to hers.
Rebellion would linger long, but its stronghold, its very raison
d'être, was gone. And Memory would last longer still; yet surely it
would not be all bitter. Hers was not. Then with a rush of real regret
she thought of the peaceful roof, of old Tiddu, of the Princess
Farkhoonda—Tara—Soma—of Sri Anunda in his garden. Was she to go
home to safe, snug England, live in a suburb, and forget? Forget all
but the tragedy! Yet even that held beautiful memories. Alice Gissing
under young Mainwaring's scarf, while he lay at her feet. Her husband
leaving a good name to his son. Did not these things help to make the
story perfect? No! not perfect. And with the remembrance her eyes
filled with sudden tears. There would always be a blank for her in the
record. The Spirit which had moved on the Face of the Waters, bringing
their chance of Healing and Atonement to so many, had left hers in the
shadow. She had learned her lesson. Ah! yes; she had learned it. But
the chance of using it?
As she sat on the plinth of the ruined veranda, watching the city
growing dim through the mist of her tears, John Nicholson's words came
back to her once more, "If ever you have the chance"; but it would
never come now—never!
She started up wildly at the clutch of a brown hand on her wrist—a
brown hand with a circlet of dead gold above it.
"Come!" said a voice behind her; "come quick! he needs you."
"Tara!" she gasped—"Tara! Is—is he alive then?"
"He would not need the mem if he were dead," came the swift reply.
Then with her wild eyes fixed on another gold circlet upon the wrist
she held, Tara laughed shrilly. "So the mem wears it still. She has
not forgotten. Women do not forget, white or black"—with a strange
stamp of her foot she interrupted herself fiercely—"come, I say,
come!"
If there had been doubts as to the Rajpootni's sanity at times in past
days, there was none now. A glance at her face was sufficient. It was
utterly distraught, the clutch on Kate's arm utterly uncontrolled; so
that, involuntarily, the latter shrank back.
"The mem is afraid," cried Tara exultantly. "So be it! I will go back
and tell the master. Tell him I was right and he wrong, for all the
English he chattered. I will tell him the mem is not suttee—how could
she be——"
The old taunt roused many memories, and made Kate ready to risk
anything. "I am coming, Tara—but where?" She stood facing the tall
figure in crimson, a tall figure also, in white, her hands full of the
roses she had gathered.
Tara looked at her with that old mingling of regret and approbation,
jealousy and pride. "Then she must come at once. He is dying—may be
dead ere we get back."
"Dead!" echoed Kate faintly. "Is he wounded then?"
A sort of somber sullenness dulled the excitement of Tara's face. "He
is ill," she replied laconically. Suddenly, however, she burst out
again: "The mem need not look so! I have done all—all she could have
done. It is his fault. He will not take things. The mem can do no
more; but I have come to her, so that none shall say, 'Tara killed the
master.' So come. Come quick!"
Five minutes after Kate was swinging cityward in a curtained dhooli
which Tara had left waiting on the road below, and trying to piece out
a consecutive story from the odd jumble of facts and fancies and
explanations which Tara poured into her ear between her swift abuse of
the bearers for not going faster, and her assertion that there was no
need to hurry. The mem need not hope to save the Huzoor, since
everything had been done. It seemed, however, that Tiddu had taken
back the letter telling of Kate's safety, and that in consequence of
this the master had arranged to leave the city in a day or two, and
Tiddu—born liar and gold grubber, so the Rajpootni styled him—had
gone off at once to make more money. But on the very eve of his going
back to the Ridge, Jim Douglas had been struck down with the Great
Sickness, and after two or three days, instead of getting better, had
fallen—as Tara put it—into the old way. So far Kate made out
clearly; but from this point it became difficult to understand the
reproaches, excuses, pathetic assertions of helplessness, and fierce
declarations that no one could have done more. But what was the use of
the Huzoor's talking English all night? she said; even a suttee could
not go out when everyone was being shot in the streets. Besides, it
was all obstinacy. The master could have got well if he had tried. And
who was to know where to find the mem? Indeed, if it had not been for
Sri Anunda's gardener, who knew all the gardener folk, of course, she
would not have found the mem even now; for she would never have known
which house to inquire at. Not that it would have mattered, since the
mem could do nothing—nothing—nothing——
Kate, looking down on the bunch of white flowers which she had
literally been too hurried to think of laying aside, felt her heart
shrink. They were rather a fateful gift to be in her hands now. Had
they come there of set purpose, and would the man who had done so much
for her be beyond all care save those pitiful offices of the dead?
Still, even that was better than that he should lie alone, untended.
So, urged by Tara's vehement upbraidings, the dhooli-bearers lurched
along, to stop at last. It seemed to Kate as if her heart stopped
also. She could not think of what might lie before her as she followed
Tara up the dark, strangely familiar stair. Surely, she thought, she
would have known it among a thousand. And there was the step on which
she had once crouched terror-stricken, because she was shut out from
shelter within. But now Tara's fingers were at the padlock, Tara's
hand set the door wide.
Kate paused on the threshold, feeling, in truth, dazed once more at
the strange familiarity of all things. It seemed to her as if she had
but just left that strip of roof aglow with the setting, sun, the
bubble dome of the mosque beginning to flush like a cloud upon the
sky. But Tara, watching her with resentful eyes, put a different
interpretation on the pause, and said quickly:
"He is within. The mem was away, and it was quieter. But the rest is
all the same—there is nothing forgotten—nothing."
Kate, however, heard only the first words, and was already across the
outer roof to gain the inner one. Tara, still beyond the threshold,
watched her disappear, then stood listening for a minute, with a face
tragic in its intensity. Suddenly a faint voice broke the silence, and
her hands, which had been tightly clenched, relaxed. She closed the
door silently, and went downstairs.
Meanwhile Kate, on the inner roof, had paused beside the low string
bed set in its middle, scarcely daring to look at its burden, and so
put hope and fear to the touchstone of truth. But as she stood
hesitating, a voice, querulous in its extreme weakness, said in
Hindustani:
"It is too soon, Tara; I don't want anything; and—and you needn't
wait—thank you."
He lay with his face turned from her, so she could stand, wondering
how best to break her presence to him, noting with a failing heart the
curious slackness, the lack of contour even on that hard string bed.
He seemed lost, sunk in it; and she had seen that sign so often of
late that she knew what it meant. One thing was certain, he must have
food—stimulants if possible—before she startled him. So she stole
back to the outer roof, expecting to find Tara there, and Tara's help.
But the roof lay empty, and a sudden fear lest, after all, she had
only come to see him die, while she was powerless to fight that death
from sheer exhaustion, which seemed so perilously near, made her put
down the bunch of flowers she held with an impatient gesture. What a
fool she had been not to think of other things!
But as she glanced round, her eye fell on a familiar earthenware
basin kept warm in a pan of water over the ashes. It was full of
chikken-brât, and excellent of its kind, too. Then in a niche stood
milk and eggs—a bottle of brandy, arrow-root—-everything a nurse
could wish for. And in another, evidently in case the brew should be
condemned, was a fresh chicken ready for use. Strange sights these to
bring tears of pity to a woman's eyes; but they did. For Kate, reading
between the lines of poor Tara's confusion, began to understand the
tragedy underlying those words she had just heard:
"I don't want anything, Tara. And you needn't wait, thank you." She
seemed to see, with a flash, the long, long days which had passed,
with that patient, polite negative coming to chill the half distraught
devotion.
He must take something now, for all that. So, armed with a cup and
spoon, she went back, going round the bed so that he could see her.
"It is time for your food, Mr. Greyman," she said quietly; "when you
have taken some, I'll tell you everything. Only you must take this
first." As she slipped her hand under him, pillow and all, to raise
his head slightly, she could see the pained, puzzled expression narrow
his eyes as he swallowed a spoonful. Then with a frown he turned his
head from her impatiently.
"You must take three," she insisted; "you must, indeed, Mr. Greyman.
Then I will tell you—everything."
His face came back to hers with the faintest shadow of his old
mutinous sarcasm upon it, and he lay looking at her deliberately for a
second or two. "I thought you were a ghost," he said feebly at last;
"only they don't bully. Well let's get it over."
The memory of many such a bantering reply to her insistence in the
past sent a lump to her throat and kept her silent. The little low
stool on which she had been wont to sit beside him was in its old
place, and half-mechanically she drew it closer, and, resting her
elbow on the bed as she used to do, looked round her, feeling as if
the last six weeks were a dream. Tara had told truth. Everything was
in its place. There were flowers in a glass, a spotless fringed cloth
on the brass platter. The pity held in these trivial signs brought a
fresh pang to her heart for that other woman.
But Jim Douglas, lying almost in the arms of death, was not thinking
of such things.
"Then Delhi must have fallen," he said suddenly in a stronger voice.
"Did Nicholson take it?"
"Yes," she replied quietly, thinking it best to be concise and give
him, as it were, a fresh grip on facts. "It has fallen. The King is a
prisoner, the Princes have been shot, and most of the troops move on
to-morrow toward Agra."
It epitomized the situation beyond the possibility of doubt, and he
gave a faint sigh. "Then it is all over. I'm glad to hear it. Tara
never knew anything; and it seemed so long."
Had she known and refused to tell, Kate wondered? or in her insane
absorption had she really thought of nothing but the chance Fate had
thrown in her way of saving this man's life? Yes! it must have been
very long. Kate realized this as she watched the spent and weary face
before her, its bright, hollow eyes fixed on the glow which was now
fast fading from the dome. "All over!" he murmured to himself. "Well!
I suppose it couldn't be helped."
She followed his thought unerringly; and a great pity for this man who
had done nothing, where others had done so much, surged up in her and
made her seek to show his fate no worse than others. Besides, this
discouragement was fatal, for it pointed to a lack of that desire for
life which is the best weapon against death. She might fail to rouse
him, as those had failed who, but a day or two before, had sent
a bit of red ribbon representing the Victoria Cross to the dying
Salkeld—the hero of the Cashmere gate—and only gained in reply a
faint smile and the words, "They will like it at home." Still she
would try.
"Yes, it is over!" she echoed, "and it has cost so many lives
uselessly. General Nicholson lost his trying to do the impossible—so
people say."
Jim Douglas still lay staring at the fading glow. "Dead!" he murmured.
"That is a pity. But he took Delhi first. He said he would."
"And my husband——" she began.
He turned then, with curiously patient courtesy. "I know. Nicholson
wrote that in his letter. And I have been glad—glad he had his
chance, and—and—made so much of it."
Once more she followed his thought; knew that, though he was too proud
to confess it, he was saying to himself that he had had his chance too
and had done nothing. So she answered it as if he had spoken.
"And you had your chance of saving a woman," she said, with a break in
her voice, "and you saved her. It isn't much, I suppose. It counts as
nothing to you. Why should it? But to me——" She broke off, losing
her purpose for him in her own bitter regret and vague resentment.
"Why didn't you let them kill me, and then go away?" she went on
almost passionately. "It would have been better than saving me to
remember always that I stood in your way—better than giving me no
chance of repaying you for all—ah! think how much! Better than
leaving me alone to a new life—like—like all the others have done."
She buried her face on her arm as it rested on the pillow with a sob.
This, then, was the end, she thought, this bitter unavailing regret
for both.
So for a space there was silence while she sat with her face hidden,
and he lay staring at that darkening dome. But suddenly she felt his
hot hand find hers; so thin, so soft, so curiously strong still in its
grip.
"Give me some more wine or something," came his voice consolingly.
"I'll try and stop—if I can."
She made an effort to smile back at him, but it was not very
successful. His, as she fed him, was better; but it did not help Kate
Erlton to cheerfulness, for it was accompanied by a murmur that the
chikken-brât was very different from Tara's stuff. So she seemed to
see a poor ghost glowering at them from the shadows, asking her how
she dared take all the thanks. And the ghost remained long after Jim
Douglas had dozed off; remained to ask, so it seemed to Kate Erlton,
every question that could be asked about the mystery of womanhood and
manhood.
But Tara herself asked none when in the first gray glimmer of dawn she
crept up the stairs again and stood beside the sleepers. For Kate,
wearied out, had fallen asleep crouched up on the stool, her head
resting on the pillow, her arm flung over the bed to keep that touch
on his hand which seemed to bring him rest. Tara, once more in her
widow's dress, looked down on them silently, then threw her bare arms
upward. So for a second she stood, a white-shrouded appealing figure
against that dark shadow of the dome which blocked the paling eastern
sky. Then stooping, her long, lissome fingers busied themselves
stealthily with the thin gold chain about the sick man's neck; for
there was something in the locket attached to it which was hers by
right now. Hers, if she could have nothing else; for she was
suttee—suttee!
The unuttered cry was surging through her heart and brain, rousing a
mad exultation in her, when half an hour afterward she re-entered the
narrow lane leading to the arcaded courtyard with the black old shrine
hiding under the tall peepul tree. And what was that hanging over the
congeries of roofs and stairs, the rabbit warren of rooms and passages
where her pigeon-nest was perched? A canopy of smoke, and below it
leaping flames. There were many wanton fires in Delhi during those
first few days of license, and this was one of them; but already, in
the dawn, English officers were at work giving orders, limiting the
danger as much as possible.
"We can't save that top bit," said one at last, then turned to one of
his fatigue party. "Have you cleared everybody out, sergeant, as I
told you?"
"Yes, sir! it's quite empty."
It had been so five minutes before. It was not now; for that canopy of
smoke, those licking tongues of flame, had given the last touch to
Tara's unstable mind. She had crept up and up, blindly, and was now on
her knees in that bare room set round with her one scrap of culture,
ransacking an old basket for something which had not seen the light
for years, her scarlet tinsel-set wedding dress. Her hands were
trembling, her wild eyes blazed like fires themselves.
And below, men waited calmly for the flames to claim this, their last
prize; for the turret stood separated from the next house.
"My God!" came an English voice, as something showed suddenly upon the
roof. "I thought you said it was empty—and that's a woman!"
It was. A woman in a scarlet, tinsel-set dress, and all the poor
ornaments she possessed upon her widespread arms. So, outlined against
the first sun-ray she stood, her shrill chanting voice rising above
the roar and rush of the flames.
"Oh! Guardians eight, of this world and the next. Sun, Moon, and Air,
Earth, Ether, Water, and my own poor soul bear witness! Oh! Lord of
death, bear witness that I come. Day, Night, and Twilight say I am
suttee."
There was a louder roar, a sudden leaping of the flames, and the
turret sank inwardly. But the chanting voice could be heard for a
second in the increasing silence which followed.
"Shive-jee hath saved His own," said the crowd, looking toward the
unharmed shrine.
And over on the other side of the city, Kate Erlton, roused by that
same first ray of sunlight, was looking down with a smile upon Jim
Douglas before waking him. The sky was clear as a topaz, the purple
pigeons were cooing and sidling on the copings. And in the bright,
fresh light she saw the gold locket lying open on the sleeper's
breast. She had often wondered what it held, and now—thinking he
might not care to find it at her mercy—stooped to close it.
But it was empty.
The snap, slight as it was, roused him. Not, however, to a knowledge
of the cause, for he lay looking up at her in his turn.
"So it is all over," he said softly, but he said it with a smile.
Yes! It was all over. Down on the parade ground behind the Ridge the
bugles were sounding, and the men who had clung to the red rocks for
so long were preparing to leave them for assault elsewhere.
But one man was taking an eternal hold upon them; for John Nicholson
was being laid in his grave. Not in the rear-guard, however, but in
the van, on the outer-most spur of the Ridge abutting on the city
wall, within touch almost of the Cashmere gate. Being laid in his
grave—by his own request—without escort, without salute; for he knew
that he had failed.
So he lies there facing the city he took. But his real grave was in
that narrow lane within the walls where those who dream can see him
still, alone, ahead, with yards of sheer sunlight between him and his
fellow-men.
Yards of sheer sunlight between that face with its confident glance
forward, that voice with its clear cry, "Come on, men! Come on!" and
those—the mass of men—who with timorous look backward hear in that
call to go forward nothing but the vain regret for things familiar
that must be left behind. "Going! Going! Gone!"
So, in a way, John Nicholson stands symbol of the many lives lost
uselessly in the vain attempt to go forward too fast.
Yet his voice echoed still to the dark faces and the light alike:
"Come on, men! Come on!"